Well I always thought that the enlightened one or the fully awakened individual would cease to have jealousy , hate anger, rage. I assumed that as the path of awakening progressed that this would no longer become an occurrence. Yet, I am finding that the voices and negative pull of the mind is unquestionably present but the miraculous response of attachment and observing the minds actions and having the ability to dictate ones own response to the stimulus is truly the greatest gift of all.
I am a father, husband, and employer to three employees now and am realizing the importance of leadership in my life as a mastery. It seems clear that in order to become an effective leader weather it be in combat or as a janitorial business owner it is obvious that there principals that must be fallowed and is apparent to me that detachment and being the mental observer is by far the most critical starting virtue to master as a leader.
I am blessed and thrilled to be on this heroes journey of life. Both consciously aware and present in the decisions that take place. I give of myself to others and my community and receive more than enough. God always provides for me with abundance and I can each night peacefully rest assured that all of my needs will be met. I am healthy and strong both mentally and physically with the spirit of a lion. This life is a gift and feel no shame to eat all that is provided to me and enjoy it to its last bite with a grin on my face.